Friday, December 22, 2006

Tis the season!

I recently went to see The Nativity Story in theatres. I was kind of skeptical going into it because biblical movies tend to be manipulated in order to appeal to the secular world. This one wasnt, I felt that it was really accurate to what we know of the story. Id talk more about it but I know a few people who read this want to see it so Ill wait till they do!

I am kind of disappointed with myself , I had hoped to be devoted to blogging, but as life may have it, I havent had time or motivation to sit down and record.

Monday, December 4, 2006

Never ceasing to pray


Prayer is the ultimate communication with our Creator.

For any relationship to work there needs to be communcation, depending on how strong you want the relationship to be, it relies on the amount of communcation between two people.

We are in relationship with Christ, I find when I cease in prayer I become very distant from Christ, but when Im in constant conversation with him I find myself living a more righteous life.


I find myself most praying when I am in a time of need, sorrow or desperation. Its rarely in thanksgiving or praise. I often compare my relationship to Christ with one to a close friend. How would I feel if my good friend was only coming to me when she/he needed someting, or was upset everytime they called me. I would probably feel used, like they only call me when it can benefit them. So why should I expect Christ to continuously bless me and encourage me when I cant do the same for him. Not that I am great enough to bless him, but He does ask for my praises and thanksgiving.


Last week in church we closed the evening with conversational prayer, which I just thought was awesome. I would love to get into habit in living my life in continuous prayer. In everything, giving thanks to Him.


` Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person is powerful and effective. ` James 5:16

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Closure

Around this time last year, I was engaged for a few weeks to Dominique so he could stay in Canada. I had prayed about it alot, and came to the peace that I wasnt supposed to marry him. So as you can tell, I never. A few days ago he was deported back to Togo. When I heard that, I felt totally heartbroken. He was being taken away from Canada without a choice, he did everything he could to stay here. And I just really have been feeling that loss for him, I know its not my burden to carry but I cant help it with all that I went through with him. His friend added me to msn, she helped explained what the last few months were like for him, what he went through. I still dont fully understand why it turned out that he had to leave. I feel like its really over now that he is gone, but I dont really feel satisfied with it. This is just a part of my life thats in limbo, no closure. Jesus be with Dominique as he adjusts to living in Togo again.

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Hey, I just added this picture to experiment with the blog. And yay! It worked lol.
This pic is of myself, Courtney, and Patrick at the Juan de Fuca trail near Victoria, B.C.
We were meant to do a huge week long hiking trip but due to various health issues with a few of the students we ended up camping for a week. It was a really great time of sharing and learning with each other.

Sunday, December 3, 2006

Grace

`Let us therefore come boldly to the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy and find grace to help in time of need` Hebrews 4:16

The last few years I`ve really struggled with my sin. I`ve fallen so far away from the Lord. I know he is right there as he always is, but I`ve put him to the side like an old rag. Ive basically been acting as if Jesus didnt die for my sins, and that I dont owe him anything. Even though....I owe him my life. I want to owe Jesus my life, I mean, he saved me from my sins. Its my strong desire to let go of my earthly nature and run into the arms of my Father. I want to go to the throne of grace, and grab hold of that mercy that God has for me.

I hold back though, why do I hold back? Why do I avoid the very thing that will complete me, the thing that will make my life worth living?
God is so consistant in talking to me. The one message that I have always gotten loud and clear is GRACE. Total grace, regardless of what Ive done, he is still willing to offer me a life with Him for eternity. I know grace, I feel it all the time. But I hold back from receiving it, I feel unworthy of such an amazing gift. I havent done anything to earn it, but I guess thats what grace is, a gift that we have done nothing to earn.

So I guess what I want to know is how do I completly let go of myself and put my trust in the Lord? How do I come boldly to the throne of grace so that i may obtain His mercy and grace?

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