tempt

`No servant can serve two masters. Either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You can not serve both God and money. ` Luke 16:13

I find myself worshiping my other master. And well at times that other master can be enjoyable, it provides me with temporary satisfaction, so why do I love a master who doesnt love me back, in fact its one that harms me.

I want to serve my Creator, the one who died for me, who gave his life for me, becuase he loves me. I want to draw closer to Him. Why am I finding it so difficult. Day by day I find myself growing nearer, I wish I just was though, I wish it wasnt something I had to work for. I long to be in my Fathers arms.

Words cant express how I feel sometimes, I dont even know how to write about it. I feel so overwhelmed when I think about the love I have been given, the grace that is for me.

Shalom

I said no

I know I havent posted much lately, busy with christmas and pretty much just laziness in typing. Not sure why since Im on msn way to much. I guess its just forming thoughts and putting them together in sentences is what gets to me. Lol.

I said no tonight, it wasnt easy but it needed to be done and I feel really good about the decision.

Tonight Im very grateful for my friend and neighbor Jen. She is always there to encourge me and call me out when I mess up.

Please keep mother and child safe and healthy tonight Father, for you who read this please keep them in your prayers.