Worlds Apart

me in 103

2008-12-03T01:22:00.000-08:00

1. real name - Ashley Ann Isaac
3. single or taken- Single
4. zodiac sign - Sag
5. male or female - Female
6. elementary - Captain Meares Elementary
7. middle - none
8. high school - Captain Meares Secondary/PMSS
9. eye color - green
10. hair color - dirty blond
15. are you a health freak - not so much
16. height - 5' 6
18. do you like yourself - most of the time
19. piercings – Ears, and nose
20. tattoos - singular
21. righty or lefty - Righty

FIRST
22. first surgery - none! thankgoodness
24. first best friend - Samantha Streicker
25. first award - reading, i think, those were the days lol
26. first sport - Swimming
27. first pet - Buddy
28. first vacation - i dont remember
30. first crush - Dave Eamer

CURRENTLY
49. eating - nothing
50. drinking - nothing
51. I'm about to - go to bed
52. listening to - my fridge and me typing
53. waiting for- my eyes to droop
54. wearing - nothing

FUTURE
55. want kids - maybe
56. want to get married - Yes
67. careers in mind- i have no idea

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX
68. lips or eyes - lips
69. hugs or kisses - hmm kisses are good, but I love hugs too
70. shorter or taller - taller
71. tan skinned or light - darrrrrrrrk
72. romantic or spontaneous - a lil bit of each
73. dark or light hair – Dark
74. muscular or normal - lol whats normal?
75. hook up or relationship - depends on the season ;)
76. similar to you or different - variety is the spice of life
77. trouble maker or hesitant -troublemaker, but responsible

HAVE YOU EVER
78. kissed a stranger - Yes
79. drank bubbles - does champagne count??
80. broken a bone - yep, both my arms..
81. climbed up a tree - Yes
82. broken someones heart - :(
83. turned someone down - yes
85. liked a friend as more than a friend - Oh Yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN
86. yourself - most of the time
87. miracles - absolutly
88. love at first sight - maybe?
89. Santa Claus - lol no, but he is dreamy
90. Sex on the first date - lol do i believe in it?? what a weird question
91. angels - Absolutely

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY
92. Is there 1 or more people you want to be with right now? Yes
LASTS
95. Text message - Oliver
96. Received call - Sandra
97. Call made - Family
98. Message on facebook - Desmond
99. Missed Call - Work
100. Person you hung out with - Grace
101. You hugged - Karsten
102. You talked to - Sandra
103. Said i love you to - my mamma

Well that wasted 10 mins of my life :)

2008-10-10T12:00:00.000-07:00

one: Who are your last 4 texts from?

Garreth and Jay two: Where was your default picture taken? dont have one three: What's your middle name? Ann four: Whats your current favorite color? blue! like the ocean and sky

five: Does your crush like you back?

haha no crush`s six: What is your current mood? horny seven: When is your birthday? december 9th eight: What color shirt are you wearing? grey nine: If you were going on a Reality TV show, which one would it be? Big Brother? lol ten: Are you imagining anyone naked right now? yep eleven: Did you ever sneak into an R rated movie? haha no twelve: Ever had a near death experience? yea, pneumonia when i was younger thirteen: Something you do a lot? masturbate fourteen: How old will you be in 12 months? 24 fifteen: Do you want to see somebody right now? yea sixteen: How many piercings? 5 seventeen: When was the last time you cried? a few weeks ago when I was sick eighteen: Who would you do anything for? My family nineteen: Who is your hero? my mom! twenty-one: American Pie or Superbad? no thanks twenty-two: What's your biggest fear? the dark twenty-three: Are you in love? no twenty-four: Would you ever take one of your ex's back? yea twenty-five: What are you going to do tonight? work :( twenty-six: what was the first thing you said this morning? ugh, I cant believe my boss woke me up! twenty-seven: Speak any other languages? german twenty-eight: Whats your favorite smell? fire! the ocean thirty: Have you ever been kissed in the rain? yea thirty-one: Do you like rain? love it! thirty-two: What are you thinking about right now? you! thirty-three: What should you be doing right now? showering thirty-four: Whats your favorite memory? growing up:) thirty-five: What are you listening to? the tv! thirty-seven: Who was the last person you yelled at? Im not sure, I dont do alot of yelling thirty-eight: Do you have a best friend? yea thirty-nine: who is the last person you said i love you too? My Mom forty: Who is the last person that made you smile?

my co worker:)

2008-09-03T22:01:00.000-07:00

Its been such a long time since I have blogged anything. I really have nothing new or exciting to post, nor anything important to say.

I have spent the past few weeks working as a supervisor at the Panago call centre which has really turned out to be a big test of my patience and is definitely nothing worth writing about.

David moved to Alberta to start Bible college, hard to believe he is out of the house and Grace is the only one left. Ive been feeling rather apathetic about life lately and am trying to break out of that cycle but I dont really know how to escape the misery. I think in order to get the joy back in my life I really need to focus more on my relationship with Christ and actually getting physically active. So I decided once my income becomes a little more steady im gonna join the gym. Ya, I could work out in the outdoors. But I prefer to be in the gym:)

Well I have nothing else to write, just wanted to make a mark in my blog.

John 15:5

2007-04-02T14:37:00.000-07:00

I am the vine; you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing. John 15:5

I started the Experiencing God Bible study today. I went to Daniels baptism on Sunday, it was a really emotional day, and my motivation for picking up the old bible. Of course becuase of the enormous change that Dan has made in his life. It was amazing to see how humble and honest he was before the congragation when he was doing the traditional baptismal questions. I really admire the Joy he has found in the Lord. It was also emotional becuase I realized how much I miss that traditional sunday church service. I could feel the love of Christ in every inch of that room, they sang with such passion. I have had some bitterness against the church but I really feel like the Lord has released me of that. I felt so overwhelmed with Jesus, the good kind of being overwhelmed:P, I want to fall in love with my Saviour again. I want to live a life that is honoring of him. I want to trust in him.

John 15:5 really sticks out to me, without HIM, I can do nothing! NOTHING! but with Him, I can bear much fruit. So today I am making the choice to remain in Him. I want to stop worrying about my future and trust that God knows whats going on in my life.

tempt

2007-01-29T20:45:00.000-08:00

`No servant can serve two masters. Either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You can not serve both God and money. ` Luke 16:13

I find myself worshiping my other master. And well at times that other master can be enjoyable, it provides me with temporary satisfaction, so why do I love a master who doesnt love me back, in fact its one that harms me.

I want to serve my Creator, the one who died for me, who gave his life for me, becuase he loves me. I want to draw closer to Him. Why am I finding it so difficult. Day by day I find myself growing nearer, I wish I just was though, I wish it wasnt something I had to work for. I long to be in my Fathers arms.

Words cant express how I feel sometimes, I dont even know how to write about it. I feel so overwhelmed when I think about the love I have been given, the grace that is for me.

Shalom

I said no

2007-01-24T22:33:00.000-08:00

I know I havent posted much lately, busy with christmas and pretty much just laziness in typing. Not sure why since Im on msn way to much. I guess its just forming thoughts and putting them together in sentences is what gets to me. Lol.

I said no tonight, it wasnt easy but it needed to be done and I feel really good about the decision.

Tonight Im very grateful for my friend and neighbor Jen. She is always there to encourge me and call me out when I mess up.

Please keep mother and child safe and healthy tonight Father, for you who read this please keep them in your prayers.

Tis the season!

2006-12-22T17:44:00.000-08:00

I recently went to see The Nativity Story in theatres. I was kind of skeptical going into it because biblical movies tend to be manipulated in order to appeal to the secular world. This one wasnt, I felt that it was really accurate to what we know of the story. Id talk more about it but I know a few people who read this want to see it so Ill wait till they do!

I am kind of disappointed with myself , I had hoped to be devoted to blogging, but as life may have it, I havent had time or motivation to sit down and record.

Never ceasing to pray

2006-12-04T15:41:00.000-08:00

Prayer is the ultimate communication with our Creator.

For any relationship to work there needs to be communcation, depending on how strong you want the relationship to be, it relies on the amount of communcation between two people.

We are in relationship with Christ, I find when I cease in prayer I become very distant from Christ, but when Im in constant conversation with him I find myself living a more righteous life.

I find myself most praying when I am in a time of need, sorrow or desperation. Its rarely in thanksgiving or praise. I often compare my relationship to Christ with one to a close friend. How would I feel if my good friend was only coming to me when she/he needed someting, or was upset everytime they called me. I would probably feel used, like they only call me when it can benefit them. So why should I expect Christ to continuously bless me and encourage me when I cant do the same for him. Not that I am great enough to bless him, but He does ask for my praises and thanksgiving.

Last week in church we closed the evening with conversational prayer, which I just thought was awesome. I would love to get into habit in living my life in continuous prayer. In everything, giving thanks to Him.

` Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person is powerful and effective. ` James 5:16

Closure

2006-12-04T13:59:00.000-08:00

Around this time last year, I was engaged for a few weeks to Dominique so he could stay in Canada. I had prayed about it alot, and came to the peace that I wasnt supposed to marry him. So as you can tell, I never. A few days ago he was deported back to Togo. When I heard that, I felt totally heartbroken. He was being taken away from Canada without a choice, he did everything he could to stay here. And I just really have been feeling that loss for him, I know its not my burden to carry but I cant help it with all that I went through with him. His friend added me to msn, she helped explained what the last few months were like for him, what he went through. I still dont fully understand why it turned out that he had to leave. I feel like its really over now that he is gone, but I dont really feel satisfied with it. This is just a part of my life thats in limbo, no closure. Jesus be with Dominique as he adjusts to living in Togo again.

Test

2006-12-04T12:40:00.000-08:00

Hey, I just added this picture to experiment with the blog. And yay! It worked lol.

This pic is of myself, Courtney, and Patrick at the Juan de Fuca trail near Victoria, B.C.

We were meant to do a huge week long hiking trip but due to various health issues with a few of the students we ended up camping for a week. It was a really great time of sharing and learning with each other.

Grace

2006-12-03T22:37:00.000-08:00

`Let us therefore come boldly to the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy and find grace to help in time of need` Hebrews 4:16

The last few years I`ve really struggled with my sin. I`ve fallen so far away from the Lord. I know he is right there as he always is, but I`ve put him to the side like an old rag. Ive basically been acting as if Jesus didnt die for my sins, and that I dont owe him anything. Even though....I owe him my life. I want to owe Jesus my life, I mean, he saved me from my sins. Its my strong desire to let go of my earthly nature and run into the arms of my Father. I want to go to the throne of grace, and grab hold of that mercy that God has for me.

I hold back though, why do I hold back? Why do I avoid the very thing that will complete me, the thing that will make my life worth living?
God is so consistant in talking to me. The one message that I have always gotten loud and clear is GRACE. Total grace, regardless of what Ive done, he is still willing to offer me a life with Him for eternity. I know grace, I feel it all the time. But I hold back from receiving it, I feel unworthy of such an amazing gift. I havent done anything to earn it, but I guess thats what grace is, a gift that we have done nothing to earn.

So I guess what I want to know is how do I completly let go of myself and put my trust in the Lord? How do I come boldly to the throne of grace so that i may obtain His mercy and grace?